reflecting on God and gods and a request for this Christmas | by Sam

We recently went on a trip to China (for business) and Thailand (for fun).  It probably goes without saying that these countries are very different from the U.S. (especially China).  We ate lots of interesting and different foods and tried our best to observe and learn about the cultures. One of the obvious things we … Continue reading reflecting on God and gods and a request for this Christmas | by Sam

a year later

A year ago, we held our son as Jesus welcomed him into heaven. It wasn't the hardest moment.  There were many harder ones before, and many more painful ones to follow.  There was peace as we sang over him and let him go.  I was flipping through my journal from last year, and saw my … Continue reading a year later


Humans of New York has been featuring pediatric cancer patients this month.  It hurts but it's so familiar.  The pain of the parents, the sweetness of the kids, the agony of the doctors and nurses.   Sometimes it hurts to read about the healing that we wanted so badly.  Mostly it hurts just to read … Continue reading pain

open handed

Some of the most beautiful, trusting moments with God come with being open-handed with everything.  My life, possessions, money, husband, children.  It doesn't come easily, and doesn't always stay, but it's a beautiful posture that I try to enter into.There were times I thought "I couldn't survive if ____ or ____ happened."  I mostly thought … Continue reading open handed