It's Mother's Day 2018, and I'm thinking of the past few mother's days:One waiting for pregnancy.One grieving a baby lost in miscarriage.One in the NICU with Clive.One grieving Clive and growing Winnie.One grieving Clive and Winnie and awaiting adoption.And this one, missing Clive and Winnie deeply, holding Coralie, and thinking of my unique version of … Continue reading motherhood and mother’s day
Hello, I’m back after quite a long hiatus! We have exciting news to share that we have a sweet baby girl named Coralie in our home. Coralie Marie George joined us on July 20, 2017. We’re in love. She’s so sweet, and huggable, and kissable. And we got to take her HOME! She’s now four months … Continue reading meet Coralie!
Sweet Winnie.It’s your first birthday. I can’t even believe it.This year has been different than last year in many, many ways. I’ve had to remind myself that it is okay that I’ve had trouble remembering you without the pain associated in losing you. I’ve had to remind myself that I don’t owe it to anyone … Continue reading happy birthday, winnie.
It’s been a few months since we last updated about our adoption. We’ve had a lot of time waiting, and unfortunately our homestudy (approval to adopt) is not yet complete. We’ve gotten caught in the midst of some staffing changes at the agency we are using for a homestudy, and it’s taken quite a lot … Continue reading Adoption Update + Fundraising
We were at our finally-met-in-person (!) friends’ church this weekend in NYC. David and his band, The Brilliance wrote a beautiful song for Clive 2 years ago while we were in the hospital. It was so good to finally connect with them. Their music has been such a gift to us. From the crying out … Continue reading the in-between, the saturday, the long wait
This may come as a surprise, or this might be the most obvious thing in the world, but Rachel and I have both struggled with anger at God, and are in the midst of struggling with anger at God. Except, (and I’m speaking for myself here) I’m not even sure anger is the right word, … Continue reading struggling to pray | by Sam
The why. I love knowing the background stories, so I thought I’d share a bit today about why I’m making all these shirts and selling them to fund our adoption. In October of last year, I found myself (obviously) in a really dark place, two months out from losing Winnie. My plans for raising Winnie been … Continue reading what’s with the shirts?
We’re adopting! I'm sure most of you won’t be surprised to hear that we’ve taken steps towards a domestic adoption. We have so much love in our hearts, and we can’t wait to have our arms filled again with another son or daughter. There’s no replacing Clive and Winnie, but we are so ready to … Continue reading Adoption
It's been so hard to write. It's been so hard to grieve. It's been so hard to process Winnie's death. The past few months have been very hard, and we've been relatively quiet about how we're doing. Clive’s and Winnie’s deaths were so different, and our response has also been different. Clive’s body failed him slowly. … Continue reading Terrifyingly confusing
We recently went on a trip to China (for business) and Thailand (for fun). It probably goes without saying that these countries are very different from the U.S. (especially China). We ate lots of interesting and different foods and tried our best to observe and learn about the cultures. One of the obvious things we … Continue reading reflecting on God and gods and a request for this Christmas | by Sam